Learning to love the way I am

It seems that you keep more of the weight you put on with pregnancy with each baby that you have. With Makenna, I only had five pounds extra. I wish that was all I had left with Jordyn and now Aiden. But it is not so. The weight likes to stay put the older you get and I've never lost well while breastfeeding which I usually do for a year!! It's like my body holds onto that fat to make sure I have enough to feed them! It really sucks because it would be so much easier if that helped me to lose weight since I do it for so long! I didn't even start trying to lose with Jordyn until after I stopped nursing her because it seemed to be useless. I finally had it all off right before I got pregnant with Aiden:) Go figure. This is the highest un pregnant weight I've had and I can't fit into anything! It sucks but I'm not as obsessed with it as I was before. It's not healthy to put all my worth into what my weight is. Don't get me wrong. I really want to lose weight. I feel better and I like how my clothes fit when I'm thinner. But I'm not going to put all of my self worth into a number. My husband tells me all the time that I look good and that I'm sexy. I never believe him but I'm going to start. If he thinks I'm beautiful, then who am I to argue with him. :) I am just going to try to work out as much as having a young family allows and try to eat healthier options. But I am also not going to deprive myself of yummy food! I am going to strive to lose weight but I'm not going to let it overtake my life. I am learning to love the way I am no matter what size my body happens to be at the moment.

Picture browsing

I was looking through pics today and came across this one. This was taken at the Smith Cabin in Palmyra when we went on our East Coast trip back in July. It was right before we got pregnant!! It made me a little envious to not have all this weight on me. I hope it doesn't take as long as it did after Jordyn to get back to this size!! :-)

Only in Hollywood...

I was flipping channels the other night and happened upon Entertainment tonight. They were talking about Dancing with the Stars so I figured I would see what is going on with that show. The whole segment was about how Cheryl (one of the professional dancers) gained weight!! They were showing her and I thought she looked great. Then they did an interview with her and she said she had only gained 5 pounds. Seriously people, we are talking about someone who gained 5 freaking pounds??? Then they said she is a size 4 so she has some curves but that she looks good anyway! What??? A size 4 is curvy??? A size 4 to me is tiny!! I personally think size 4 is too small!! You can be too skinny! I would love to be a size 8. That was the size I was when Trav and I were dating and it was such a good weight for me but I also looked good at size 10. Hollywood needs to get a clue. They are going to make our young girls think they need to be toothpicks to be worth anything!! I beg to differ......

Check up stats

I had to take J.J. to her 12 month doctor's appointment so I thought I would record some stats for her. She weighs 21 pounds 3 ounces and is in the 54% (a big drop from when she was younger). She hasn't gained much with all the walking and toddling around she is doing. She is 29 1/4 inches long and is in the 51% (which is an increase from the 30's) so she is growing!! She still seems short to me;) And finally her head size is 18 inches which is in the 80%. She's always had a big head from birth thoughÜ They put my poor baby through the ringer today. She got three shots plus a flu shot and they took blood from her toe to check her lead level (they just got a machine that tells them if they have been exposed to lead which is awesome and covered by insurance) Have I said how glad I am that I switched pediatricians!! Thanks Jen! Anyway, her lead level is fine and I was sent off with a whimpering, sore baby girl. But I took her to story time with her sister and Grandma and she was clapping and laughing away and then took a two and a half hour nap when we got home!!! It sure does suck taking a healthy baby in and taking a cranky, not feeling good baby home;(