Loving life even through the craziness

I love blogs. I love writing in my blog. I love reading my friends' blogs. And I even love reading blogs of people I have never met before. Trav thinks I'm weird for that one but we can learn so much from other's experiences. Especially the one's that have lost their little ones. I have literally balled my eyes out reading some of these posts and each time I do, I question why I do it. I really don't know why but every time I do, it makes me want to love on my babies just a little more. It makes me want to spend more quality time with them. It makes me not want to waste precious time with these sweet spirits that we were blessed with. I often feel guilty for not doing these things enough. For spending too much time worrying about a clean house. For spending too much time wondering if I should go back to work instead of staying home and doing the most important job I will ever have. For getting mad so quickly when things get crazy and I'm about to pull my hair out. I want to be a better mom. I think we should always strive to be better parents, better children, better friends, better relatives. It should be something that will be a constant goal throughout our lives and I know that I need to be reminded of it every now and again. Sometimes life is crazy especially when you have kids. Trav and I look at each other all the time when the kids are screaming and yelling and he says, "Wasn't it easier before we had kids?" Of course it was easier when you were only responsible for yourselves. But I say, "Was it better?" Not a chance!! I can't imagine life without my three crazies!! And boy are they crazy. There are tantrums and whining. Fighting and sleepless nights. But I am loving life even through the craziness. They are my life!!